ahhhhh it is spring, the flowers are coming out and i personally can't wait for the lilacs to show up,(hey it is the only flower i can actually smell, the first and only one, you people told me the smelled great but i had no idea!, my sense of smell is so fucked up) and the best part about spring this time is that it is on fucking time too!! today i enjoyed a nice spring rain, a favorite past time of mine. what can i say spring just puts me in a great mood, and to top the whole thing off school is almost over!.alot of you fuckers thought i was stark raving mad to attempt to work full-time, and go to school full-time, well guess what? fuck you! i fucking made it with my sanity somewhat intact. i passed all my courses, and met lots of people, some cool, some really fucking annoying, but that is how it goes can't have one without the other. and very recently i was chosen for this production manager thing for this installation project, i went fucking crazy working on it we made this audio box that ended up weighing 550-600lbs, and the best part we couldn't find a way to get it to the friggin show by any normal transportation, so we did the next best thing. now first unless you live in toronto you won't understand, but we pushed this thing on a couple of dollies from cabbagetown to the AGO, which is approximately 24 city blocks! it was an adventure, me and four other people lugged that shit box at 3 in the morning, half drunk, that way we didn't notice the pain we were most definitely in.pictures we come soon. somehow i survived all of this. let see how much longer i last.

here is a sculpture i made recently, i never know what is going to come out.i hope to make a cast of this and put some colour on this guy with mercury eyes, i know it is cliche but for some reason it feels like it would click.

i am really confused right now.it is so weird, usually i am the most calm and collected person i know, but very recently i have been tongue tied. i keep second guessing myself and others. i don't know where i should direct my attention. i hate it when i get indecisive. it isn't my style. i always know what i want!!!! but right now...........i have no fucking idea, fuck i hate this. school is almost over, my house is going to be empty for two months with nothing but me to inhabit it which is fine, gives me time to work on artwork for the art show. i had other plans but oh well. and when i thought i knew what i wanted it changed(sorry for the dissembled sentence)my mind is all over the place i will get better soon.

well the mini putt was quite fun and after that, went to a comedy film fest, pretty funny, there was this one about a zombie trying to adjust to daily life amongst the living, and then there was the new creature comforts by aardman films, that was hilarious. lots of fun all in all. feeling much better, little more life in me. almost done school and can't wait for it to be over. once done i am going to finally focus on this art show for the summer, it will feature a bunch of my sculptures. but i won't reveal all the secrets. you will have to wait and see.

well i made it! another week of turmoil done and over with. feeling much better now, too much caffeine though got the jitters this morning and couldn't control myself,being all shaky was weird that never happened before. essay is done and handed in and all priority work done for the time being, it be relaxing time for moi. going mini fucking putting this weekend i am so psyched about that....yeah i know i am a nerd. but it is glow in the dark after all.that rules!!!

i just had one of the stressful times in the past year. last night i was up all night working on an essay for school, a 1500 word essay and when i was finished at about 730 i the morning the computer decides to freeze up on me and cause me to almost burst into tears cause there was a very definite possibility that i lost my entire essay, but crisis averted! the file is safe and sound. being sleep deprived and all around kooky can make you really fragile.

not very lucky right now